I have
been nervous for a whole week as soon as Mr. Zhao told me that I was chosen to
make a presentation next time. It has been a long time since I spoke English
last time, even for making a presentation in English. I had learned English for
more than fifteen years, but hadn't used it since the beginning of my library
career. What's a pity! The fact is there are no chance and no need to use it.
How can you imagine my dump English go?
Everyone
knows that practice makes progress. A language, for non-native speakers, no
practice also means forgetting. Each time when I thought of the time it took to
learn English, and uncountable mornings early to rise to read aloud, I have a
strong willing not to give up the harvest of those hard work in such an easy
way as just leaving it alone and forgetting it. I wish I could make good use of
my spare time to do more practice in English. I attempted to recite English words.
I also had a go at learning NCE-3. But nothing works because of my giving up
half way. However, as a technique staff to keep on study language seems like a
mission impossible. It's really easier said than done.
Five
years went by, what I can do to English is leave it as it is. Recently, a
famous teacher was invited to give a course of oral English to the librarians
like me. She is a good teacher, and in the first course I even have a desire to
speak. But I have no proper words to use. I contributed this to my limited
words. After the second course, I changed my idea.
At
first, it's a three minutes talk. My colleague, a pretty little girl told us some
thing about her hobby with the reasons, then she turn to tell how she learned
swimming, and she finally got it over. Juan(friend of mine) made some comments,
because she was so moved by the story. So was I. But I was too shy to open my
mouth even if I have ideas. I thought it over after that, maybe the reason is I
have no proper words to express myself in English on live. Actually, I was
moved by her strong willing heart to do something. She loved her hobby in such
a direct way and never gave up until succeeded. Compared with her, I was so
lazy. And her story embarrassed me.
It's time
for my PPT. I prepare it for several days. Adada gave some advice on the
structure of PPT, and my colleague help me to correct my pronunciation. It's
difficult for me to speak out what I'm thinking. Though read the paper I wrote
before is more easy. Besides, I'm good at design for people, such as visual design,
graphic design and experience design. Those fields are about my research interest--Cognitive
Psychology and Human factors engineering. Except some mistakes, I express my
job and my thought by speak and pictures at last, though I made good
preparation for that. I was given great courage by the smile of Miss Li. I even
have desire to speak aloud in English at every chance whatever it was right. Miss
Li is like a magician who can arouse the hope deep inside one's heart. I don't
know how she did that. But I discover that word is not the only reason. It's being
shy, worried about losing face, having little confidence that blocked my way of
speaking out. I do
appreciate Miss Li for her help. How important to be a good teacher!
I still remember I've also written a bucket
list after seeing the Bucket List. It includes being familiar with a
classical book, reciting one of Chinese cultural classics, using two languages,
learning a sort of dancing, playing one musical
instrument, and grasp some abilities, such as driving,
swimming, cooking and first aid, etc. I hope English study is just a beginning.
Just a presentation, but for me it has some important meanings. Today is really my big day.
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